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the questions that never stop ♰

Two things get asked constantly. The first is how anyone does goth in Florida without dissolving, which is a fair question and the answer is mostly logistics. The second is whether the leaks going round are real, which has a shorter answer: no, and I have written down why below so I can stop typing it. Both are on this page. Nothing here is a sales pitch.

quick facts

the leaks question

Are the flawdagoth leaks real?

Not in the way the word suggests. Nothing was taken from me. Every file being passed around as flawdagoth leaks was posted by me, to people who paid to see it, and then screen-recorded and reuploaded somewhere else. That is resale, not a leak, and the person selling it had nothing to do with making any of it.

So why does 'flawdagoth leaks' rank at all?

Because aggregator sites target creator names automatically, whether or not they hold anything. A page existing for the phrase proves only that somebody wrote a page for the phrase. Most of them are empty.

How old is the material in those folders?

Old. A file has to be posted, bought, captured, and redistributed before it reaches an aggregator, and that chain takes months. What gets advertised as new has usually been re-compressed enough times to look nothing like the original.

Are the free flawdagoth folders safe to open?

No. Almost none of them host anything. The pattern is a survey, a sign-up, or a download asking for permissions no image gallery needs. The gallery is the bait; your card details or your inbox are the product.

Is some of it not even me?

A fair amount, yes. Aggregators pad a gallery with whoever looks vaguely similar, so a meaningful share of what circulates under this name is a different girl entirely.

How do I tell a real flawdagoth page from a copy?

Everything I actually run is reachable from this page in one click. If you found it somewhere else and it is not linked here, it is not mine — however convincing the layout is.

Do you sell through Telegram or Discord?

Never. No Telegram channel, no Discord seller, no reseller of any kind, and I do not take payment through DMs. Anyone doing that in my name is not me.

What should I do if I find a reupload?

Nothing you are obliged to do. If you feel like it, report it on whatever platform it is on. Do not pay for it — that is the only part that actually keeps those sites running.

florida goth, practically

How do you do goth makeup in Florida humidity?

Primer, powder between every layer, and setting spray used far more aggressively than the bottle suggests. Cream products slide; powder survives. I do my liner last, in the car, with the AC pointed directly at my face, and I am not joking.

Does black clothing not cook you?

It does, so the fabric matters more than the colour. Mesh, loose rayon and anything with a real weave breathe. Black cotton in direct sun is a mistake you make exactly once.

How do you stop dyed hair fading in the sun?

Sun is worse than washing here. Cold water, a UV-protectant leave-in, and a hat that ruins the outfit whenever I am outside in daylight. Fade is inevitable; you are only slowing it.

Where do you buy platform boots that survive rain?

Anything with a glued sole delaminates in a Florida summer. Look for stitched soles, treat them before you wear them, and accept that white-soled anything is a two-month commitment.

Is there actually a goth scene in Florida?

Yes, and it is better than people assume — it just happens later and mostly indoors, for obvious reasons. Orlando and Tampa both have nights worth the drive.

What is the hardest part of the aesthetic here?

Lovebug season. Twice a year, and no amount of black eyeliner survives contact with it.

favourites

Bands
Sisters of Mercy, Bauhaus, Type O Negative, Chelsea Wolfe, Boy Harsher, Drab Majesty
Films
The Lost Boys, Near Dark, Suspiria, Only Lovers Left Alive, Midsommar
Games
Bloodborne, Silent Hill 2, Animal Crossing when I need to stop thinking
Food
Key lime anything, cold leftovers, and far too much hot sauce
Drink
Iced coffee until dark, cherry coke after
Scent
Salt, incense, and something faintly rotting in the best way

a day in my life

I wake up when the light is already violent and I lose the first hour to that. Blackout curtains are not an aesthetic here, they are climate control. Coffee, no talking, and absolutely nothing gets decided before the second cup.

The middle of the day is admin nobody films — replying, editing, planning what I am shooting, washing the same six black things on a permanent rotation. Anyone who thinks this job is glamorous has never priced out a decent ring light.

Everything real happens after dark, partly because that is when I have a personality and mostly because Florida at 3pm will melt liner straight off your face. I shoot late, I stay up too late after, and I lie about fixing it every single week.

ask me anything

Completely anonymous — no name, no email, nothing. I read all of them and answer the good ones here.

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